Not Tonight

VERSE 1

All I want to do is lay on the couch

Keep the TV on while I’m zoning out

A precious fur baby on my chest

Relaxing this way is truly the best

Any other night would have been okay

Any other night, I wouldn’t want to stay

But for now it’s time to turn out the light

Not tonight, my sweetie, just not tonight

VERSE 2

All I want to do is read my novel

I shouldn’t even have to beg or grovel

I shouldn’t have to debate this with you

I’m an introvert and it’s nothing new

Any other night would be pure bliss

Any other night, I wouldn’t want to miss

But for now this isn’t worth a fair fight

Not tonight, my queen, just not tonight

VERSE 3

All I want is a bowl of ice cream

To satisfy my sweetest sweet tooth dreams

Peanut butter chocolate or plain vanilla

It’d be worth weighing more than a gorilla

Any other night we’d have a healthy meal

Any other night I’d submit to your deal

But for now sugary heaven just feels right

Not tonight, my lady, just not tonight

VERSE 4

You can call me lazy as I swim in gravy

You can call me a child innocent and mild

All I know is that I need my own space

All I know is that I need a comfy place

To rest my head and decompress my mind

Before anxiety crushes me from behind

I’m sure one day you’ll understand my plight

Not tonight, my lovely, just not tonight

Coasting

A bowl of corn flakes on my lap

Elderly parents taking their naps

Kitties and puppies everywhere

Gray rain petrichor in the air

This is my haven and sanctuary

Until the day of my obituary

Day after day of feeling happy

The universe’s energy I’m trapping

But in this zone, nothing grows

Nothing to gain, nothing to show

Taking risks is the rational answer

Reason sounds like mindless banter

Too many times I’ve crashed and burned

Laying low the only lesson learned

A head full of voices is all I’ve earned

Broken memories are all that returned

If someone wants to show me the way

We could get it done as soon as today

Those who laugh call this handholding

Those with loud voices resort to scolding

But here’s the truth you can have for free

It doesn’t just apply to someone like me

We all need a push in the right direction

Even if it’s only the smallest correction

Don’t give me speeches about boots in the ass

Use some vocabulary that actually has class

Cheer me on instead of throwing insults

Show me my path without leading the cult

I’ll take it from here, this is my journey

These are the horizons for which I’m yearning

I’ll never forget where I came from

As I claim my place in this kingdom