Holding On Forever

VERSE 1

Like a butterfly with its wings ripped off

I can’t forget the pain that’s been wrought

I can carry my baggage for years and years

Sleep comfortably with subconscious fears

Even during moments of quiet and peace

I’m thinking of ways to bleed the creeps

If only I had my very own time machine

Could show my enemies what pain means

CHORUS 1

Holding on forever

Is my only endeavor

If I let go I will fall

Lucky if I can crawl

VERSE 2

Like a concert full of drunk ass punks

My mind doesn’t want to shut its ass up

The tiniest prick of a sewing needle

Is how a battleaxe’s chop must feel

Insults of the lowest common denominator

Feel like I’m trapped with a dominator

I carry that shit for the longest time

If only I could commit the ultimate crime

CHORUS 2

Holding on forever

Ties I cannot sever

If I let go I will drop

Nightmare will not stop

VERSE 3

Like a strongman lifting a refrigerator

I can carry heavy shit forever and later

I remember every troll and every hater

Drinking their blood is what I will savor

Chewing their flesh, dinner and a show

It doesn’t make much sense, I know

You’re always on the outside looking in

Where every evil thought of mine is a sin

CHORUS 3

Holding on forever

Using trauma as a tether

If I let go I will splat

Break my fucking back

Holding on forever

Let go I will never

Nobody will pick me up

Expect me to be tough

Because of You

Whether or not you believe it to be true

This world is different because of you

Every word you say, every dollar you spend

Every action you take, every position you defend

Every friend you make, every heart you take

Every enemy you kill, all the blood you spill

What seems like nothing on the surface

Could feel to others overwhelmingly urgent

A lifelong lesson or an honorable mention

A permanent heaven or a hellish weapon

For every action, there’s a consequence

No in-betweens, no riding on the fence

Do you want to be a force of positive change?

Or a constant source of negative pain?

No matter what decision you ultimately make

Have no regrets unless you want to break

This world is different because of you

Either tear it apart or become its glue

Anyone But You

VERSE 1

We could have had a friendly debate

One without judgment or even hate

But you attacked everything about me

You’re a predator with an ego to feed

Build yourself up, knock me down

Like you’re wearing a fucking crown

I’ll spread my wings, fly into the blue

Anyone but you, jerk, anyone but you!

VERSE 2

We could have had a nice dinner date

Ice cream and sex after finishing our plates

But you made me fear for my own safety

That’s why I haven’t been flirty lately

Your soft touch makes my blood go cold

You believe my body is yours to hold

Your so-called love was never even true

Anyone but you, babe, anyone but you!

VERSE 3

You could have taught me a new skill

I wouldn’t have minded the tuition bill

But you marked me with C’s, D’s, and F’s

The midterms hadn’t even started yet

Convince me that I’m mediocre at best

All because I couldn’t pass your test

Class dismissed, nothing more to prove

Anyone but you, prof, anyone but you!

VERSE 4

Dirty bastards come from all walks of life

They don’t always carry a gun or a knife

All they need is just a little bit of power

To turn good people into screaming cowards

Playing with your brain and with your heart

Until you want to rip your fucking skin apart

Whenever she tells you that love is blue

All you have to say is, “Anyone but you!”

VERSE 5

A dead cockroach would be just as friendly

As any role model who plays a better enemy

As any stranger who lacks true empathy

As any troll who laughs at you with anonymity

As any friend who stabs you in the front and back

As any lover who leaves you with eyes so black

As any preacher who thinks his bullshit is true

Anyone but you, fucker, anyone but you!